Hope

We all need hope. Hope keeps us going and anticipating a future of good.

So where do we place our hope? What is the source of hope?

Lamentations 3:21-24 tells us our hope is based on God’s unceasing steadfast love and His endless mercies as well as recognizing our portion or inheritance is the LORD Himself. It does not mention our circumstances, our wealth or power or even what good we do. It is all based on God and His character.

Psalms 62:5-8 has long been a favorite passage.

5 For God alone, O my soul, wait in silence, for my hope is from him.

6 He only is my rock and my salvation, my fortress; I shall not be shaken.

7 On God rests my salvation and my glory; my mighty rock, my refuge is God.

8 Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your heart before him; God is a refuge for us. Selah – Psalm 62:5-8

This passage show that hope is only found in God and in God alone can our soul find rest. It seems hope is often associated with a feeling of rest, refuge or peace. Thankfully God is the source of both hope and peace which are so very needed in our lives.

I know when I try to figure out life on my own or only look at circumstances and take my eyes off Christ I can quickly lose hope and feel turmoil, stress and lack of peace. I can so related to Peter walking on the water and sinking when he took his eyes off of Christ and put them on the waves.

LORD, help us to focus on You. Enable us to use your character and Holy Word as the lens though which we view the world around us. Only with your empowerment, LORD, can we live in hope, faith and rest because of whose we are not because of the circumstances in our lives. Forgive me/us for fearing the waves more than trusting you.

In Jesus Name,

Amen

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Morning Motivation

Some days begin with my feeling more tired and in greater pain than when I went to bed. Pain has either completely stolen my sleep or made it broken or disrupted. Those are the days I need extra motivation to get up and going. If my schedule allows, and really in need of sleep will take two Benadryl and something for pain and try to sleep. But if, like today, when my closest Colorado friend’s son is getting married, I need to get going regardless of how I feel.

I am an extrovert and love to attend social events but I need to have down days planned on either side of an event. I needed to say no to a fun international potluck/fiesta I was invited to last night because have the wedding today that was much more important I attend. Making those hard decisions, yet encouraging my hubby to attend without me are part of the sacrifices required in my day to day life of chronic illness.

So how do I get going on a morning like today? First of all greet God before I get out of bed. Acknowledge to Him how I feel and my need for His strength to be made perfect in my weakness. (2 Corinthians 12:9) I also try to recount at least three things I am thankful for and express my gratitude to the Lord. Practicing gratitude gets my eyes off of me and on to my faithful, sovereign, good and wise God. My physical therapist gave me stretches I do in bed each morning that help. Today with extra pain from storm system that came through last night I am taking a soak in our tub with magnesium flakes in the water. Often while soaking I do some devotions or blog from my phone.

Today I awoke to an encouraging response to a previous blog post and it made me realize once again God has purpose in my pain and illness.

So as soak, I think of friends on here and social media who I have never met me face to face. There is a special bond and camaraderie among those who live with chronic illness and/or pain. We are the ones who grasp this life and truly understand the limitations that come with it. We are the ones who know the faith and grace it takes to count it all joy and live in gratitude regardless of our hard circumstances.

Knowing I have other brothers and sisters in similar situations motivates me to get up and live life with joy relying on God’s strength and grace. I want the world to see though I have health issues and pain that is not who I am.

I am a blessed, chosen before the world began, loved, adopted, redeemed and one that God lavishes on His grace. (Ephesians 1:3-10). I remember I am chosen, holy and beloved. (Colossians 3:12). As His beloved daughter, He has an eternal plan and a purpose for my life.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. – Jeremiah 29:11

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The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me; your steadfast love, O LORD, endures forever. Do not forsake the work of your hands. – Psalm 138:8

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I cry out to God Most High, to God who fulfills his purpose for me. – Psalm 57:2

Blessings,

Deb

God’s Kind Provision for Painsomnia

Praise!!!

A few days ago God did something cool. I bought a $3.00 plus $3.00 shipping and handling small needlepoint canvas off EBay. The seller messaged me that she has two others she wants to find a good home for and asked me if I would like to have them. She then said she is sending them to me from Europe for free!!

I do these when I am up with pain for hours in the middle of the night. They are easy to do with little thought and I am able to be praying as I stitch.

The canvases arrived yesterday. The 5″ x 7″ landscape I ordered plus a much larger landscape, three smaller landscapes and a smaller Victorian print. I received a total of six needlepoint canvases with designs printed on them for a total of six dollars!

God is concerned about even the small details in our lives. He is a personal God who knows us so intimately that he knows the exact number of hairs currently on your head.

Why, even the hairs of your head are all numbered. Fear not; you are of more value than many sparrows. – Luke 12:7

If God cares about hobbies that help us pass painful nights, I can trust Him to care for me in the bigger areas of life too. Not only did He kindly provide for me, but He also used this provision to build my faith for the bigger and more crucial things in life.

Ponder how has God met you recently in either minuscule or gargantuan ways and express your gratitude to Him and share with others. I would love to read your stories in the comments.

Blessings,

Deb

Bomb Cyclone

This week in Colorado we experienced a weather phenomenon called a Bomb Cyclone. For me it was mostly a pain bomb.

Here is a description on a bomb cyclone.

https://oceanservice.noaa.gov/facts/bombogenesis.html

And here is a CNN report on it:

https://www.google.com/amp/s/amp.cnn.com/cnn/2019/03/13/us/winter-storm-blizzard-wednesday-wxc/index.html

I have chronic pain from Mast Cell Activation and a connective tissue disorder called Elhers Danlos. Weather changes greatly impact my pain. I feel pain the day or two before a weather change as well as during it. My husband jokes my pain barometer is more accurate than the weatherman!

Tuesday afternoon it was sunny and 60 degrees and Wednesday morning we were having a blizzard with a record drop in barometric pressure. I had a couple sleepless nights due to the Painsomnia. We were not otherwise that impacted from the weather beyond my husband working from home the day of it, flickering lights and losing half a tall juniper. Other areas had higher winds and more drifting snow that stranded thousands of Coloradans, as well as many across the state losing power.

You can see the snow drifts and our broken bush. Minimal compared to what others dealt with during this storm.

Above is our front storm door plastered with snow even under a large covered porch. All our windows on every side of the house were plaster like this with snow.

The storm moved northeast and really pounded Nebraska causing huge snowdrifts in the western panhandle and horrific flooding in much of the state.

https://www.wowt.com/content/news/NEBRASKA-FLOOD-PHOTOS-Lawmakers-law-enforcement-view-affected-areas-507250911.html

Here is how you can help those in Nebraska impacted by this storm.

https://www.9news.com/mobile/article/weather/severe-weather/historic-flooding-wreaking-havoc-in-nebraska/73-7b091d48-61fe-4d01-b69c-f65e5c1590b3

We lived in Nebraska for five years and areas we lived in have been impacted. We still have many friends in the area and are praying for their safety and that their homes be out of the flood zones.

The Refiner’s Fire

I believe in seasons of high pain, shattered dreams or disappointments it is so easy to think of all you want, desire and dream more than our all sufficient, all powerful, faithful, sovereign, good and wise God. So thankful that His grace and forgiveness are limitless and no matter how many times I sin or stray from my first love He is ready to forgive and welcome me back.

My husband and I have just walked through the hardest 6.5 months of lies, false accusations and betrayal by those whom we least expected. It has showed me how much He alone is faithful and sufficient, especially when people are not.

Prior to this, I had  4.5 years of being like the children of Israel pining to go back to Egypt for leeks and onions and forgetting about their hardships and slavery. My “leeks and onions” attitude made me look back too often wishing I was back in Arizona and for the friendships we had there, rather than looking ahead or looking up to God. This hard situation revealed a new side to our life back in Arizona (we left there due to health issues April 2014) and made me press hard into God in my pain, confusion and loss.

God also used this to reveal many things to my husband and I about our own hearts in how we responded to this. I would hate to ever walk through this again, but can see God that used a grievous thing for my eternal good and His glory. Hopefully in weeks, months and years to come will see that more and more.

We all know and quote Romans 8:28 “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.” But the way things work for good and the purpose is described in verse 29:
For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers.”
The good purpose for all things is to conform us to the image of his son not our comfort or personal happiness.

Often conforming to Christ comes while walking through the heat of a refiner’s fire where the dross of sin, wrong motives and self focus are removed bit by bit. In my flesh, I often want God to be my fire extinguisher and put out the fire instead.

Take away the dross from the silver, and the smith has material for a vessel. Proverbs 25:4

The words of the LORD are pure words, like silver refined in a furnace on the ground, purified seven times. Psalm 12:6

He will sit as a refiner and purifier of silver, and he will purify the sons of Levi and refine them like gold and silver, and they will bring offerings in righteousness to the LORD. Malachi 3:3

Reading this a few years ago really helped me to endure the fires of shattered dreams, health struggles and all suffering. Today it was a reminder I once again needed.

One day we took the children to see a goldsmith refine gold after the ancient manner of the East. He was sitting beside his little charcoal fire. (“He shall sit as a refiner”; the gold- or silversmith never leaves his crucible once it is on the fire.) In the red glow lay a common curved roof tile; another tile covered it like a lid. This was the crucible. In it was the medicine made of salt, tamarind fruit and burnt brick dust, and imbedded in it was the gold. The medicine does its appointed work on the gold, “then the fire eats it,” and the goldsmith lifts the gold out with a pair of tongs, lets it cool, rubs it between his fingers, and if not satisfied puts it back again in fresh medicine. This time he blows the fire hotter than it was before, and each time he puts the gold into the crucible, the heat of the fire is increased; “it could not bear it so hot at first, but it can bear it now; what would have destroyed it then helps it now.” “How do you know when the gold is purified?” we asked him, and he answered, “When I can see my face in it [the liquid gold in the crucible] then it is pure.”
Amy Carmichael

My prayer is I will be conformed more and more to His image rather than fighting to put out the fire.

Blessings,

Deb

Treasures in the Dark

“When you meet Jesus face-to-face, your hardships will have given you a taste of what He went through to purchase the promise of your resurrection. And your loyalty to Him in your sufferings will give you something concrete to offer in return. For what other proof could you bring of your love if this life left you totally unscarred?” – Joni Eareckson Tada

This week has been one of the hardest in our lives as false accusations and charges made by somebody who had been my husband’s closest friend.

While dealing with the hurt, sense of betrayal and grief God has met us over and over. I am living in the Psalms and a few other passages. Our desire is for truth to prevail and that we leave all vindication and judgement to our righteous, just and capable God.

Below I am sharing the verses and insights God has used to sustain me in this hard week and am confident will continue to sustain me in this ongoing trial.

Therefore let those who suffer according to God’s will entrust their souls to a faithful Creator while doing good. – 1 Peter 4:19

While going through this trial I need to entrust all to my faithful Creator and continuing serving others and doing good.

3 Trust in the LORD, and do good; dwell in the land and befriend faithfulness.

4 Delight yourself in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.

5 Commit your way to the LORD; trust in him, and he will act.

6 He will bring forth your righteousness as the light, and your justice as the noonday.

7 Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; fret not yourself over the one who prospers in his way, over the man who carries out evil devices!

8 Refrain from anger, and forsake wrath! Fret not yourself; it tends only to evil. – Psalm 37:3-8

As I walk through this I need to trust God and do good be committed to Him and delighting in Him and wait for God to reveal our righteousness.

7 “Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose trust is the LORD.

8 He is like a tree planted by water, that sends out its roots by the stream, and does not fear when heat comes, for its leaves remain green, and is not anxious in the year of drought, for it does not cease to bear fruit.” – Jeremiah 17:7-8

Even in season of heat and drought of suffering we can bear fruit! We are planted in by the living water of Christ and can drink deeply from Him and His Word.

So God is revealing to me I am to continue in doing good and bearing fruit for Him and His glory.

12 For it is not an enemy who taunts me- then I could bear it; it is not an adversary who deals insolently with me- then I could hide from him.

13 But it is you, a man, my equal, my companion, my familiar friend.

14 We used to take sweet counsel together; within God’s house we walked in the throng. – Psalm 55:12-14

He redeems my soul in safety from the battle that I wage, for many are arrayed against me. – Psalm 55:18

Cast your burden on the LORD, and he will sustain you; he will never permit the righteous to be moved. – Psalm 55:22

David understood the sense of betrayal by a close friend as does Christ with one of the twelve betraying Him. God is the one who will be my safety, redeem me and sustain me.

I will give you the treasures of darkness and the hoards in secret places, that you may know that it is I, the LORD, the God of Israel, who call you by your name. – Isaiah 45:3

I need to seek for the treasures in the darkness. To see God’s loving comfort, sustaining grace, faithfulness, peace and joy not based on circumstances as some of those treasures of darkness. One treasure is before this hit God has orchestrated for me to be doing a Bible study in Psalms. Another is my husband and I had decided about three weeks ago to postpone listing our home this September and revisit that decision next spring. That would be too much to deal with in the midst of this. Another huge blessing is that usually relational stress will trigger a flare up in my chronic health issues and it has not. Probably the biggest treasure apart from Christ is we are not in this alone but have two other couples in the same boat and we are supporting and encouraging one another with God’s truths and prayers.

I am praying this time will not only lead to truth being revealed but will result in my growing in love and dependence on Christ.

How has God met you when falsely accused? What verses have sustained you?

Blessings,

Deb

The Master Weaver

I have recently taken up needlepoint again and began reflecting on how it looks on the back side versus the front. As I pondered, it brought back to memory the poem The Master Weaver of unknown (and as I was researching today, of conflicting origin) that was made famous by Corrie Ten Boom author of The Hiding Place and other books.

The Master Weaver

My life is but a weaving

Between my God and me.

I cannot choose the colors

He weaveth steadily.

Oft’ times He weaveth sorrow;

And I in foolish pride

Forget He sees the upper

And I the underside.

Not ’til the loom is silent

And the shuttles cease to fly

Will God unroll the canvas

And reveal the reason why.

The dark threads are as needful

In the weaver’s skillful hand

As the threads of gold and silver

In the pattern He has planned

He knows, He loves, He cares;

Nothing this truth can dim.

He gives the very best to those

Who leave the choice to Him.

We, while still on this earth see through a glass dimly but will see perfectly when we see Jesus face to face. Our sight is limited by earthly limitations and we cannot fathom the beautiful picture God is creating out of our lives.

A picture without contrast of colors and dark and lights is boring and doesn’t display as well. My dad was an artist and worked in a printing company that did mainly advertising. Colors, contrast and light scale were all very important to get the message across. Yet we often find ourselves complaining as God weaves in the “needful dark threads” of pain, suffering, grief and hard circumstances. I do not know what dark threads God is including in the tapestry of your life, but I firmly believe even when I don’t see or understand the dark ones He is weaving into mine, that He is still faithful, good, wise and sovereign and knows how best to conform me to the image of His Son.

When you only see a small section of the back is even more confusing than looking at the entire back side. Or if you only see the dark areas you lose sight of the bright cheery ones.

And here is entire backside of the needlepoint. You can get an idea of what it will be but cannot fully capture the details. Much like as later in life when we look back and remember all the things God has done in our lives and brought us through.

One of my favorite Bible stories is about David at Ziklag in 1 Samuel 30.

David has just returned from battle with his mighty men to discover an enemy had burned their homes then kidnapped all their women and children. His men are distraught, as I am sure David was also since he had two wives taken. His men were threatening mutiny and talking about stoning David. How did David react?

1 Now when David and his men came to Ziklag on the third day, the Amalekites had made a raid against the Negeb and against Ziklag. They had overcome Ziklag and burned it with fire

2 and taken captive the women and all who were in it, both small and great. They killed no one, but carried them off and went their way.

3 And when David and his men came to the city, they found it burned with fire, and their wives and sons and daughters taken captive.

4 Then David and the people who were with him raised their voices and wept until they had no more strength to weep.

5 David’s two wives also had been taken captive, Ahinoam of Jezreel and Abigail the widow of Nabal of Carmel.

6 And David was greatly distressed, for the people spoke of stoning him, because all the people were bitter in soul, each for his sons and daughters. But David strengthened himself in the LORD his God. – 1 Samuel 30:1-6

David strengthened himself in the Lord his God. Another version says “he encouraged himself in the Lord”. I imagine he was looking back over his life how God has helped him as a shepherd boy deal with lions and bears oh my! Recalling when as a young ruddy cheeked boy he killed the giant Goliath with a stone from his sling with God’s help. Also he may have thought of his many skirmishes with the mad King Saul and the Philistines. His faith was strengthened as He remembered God’s care in previous hard times and he was encouraged to have hope in this present very dark situation. In a way, David examined the tapestry he had seen woven so far by God in his life.

So when hard times come, do we only focus on the current dark thread or do we see the many colored, darks and lights of your life to this point? Do we remember how God has met us in previous dark times?

May you and I, like David, be able to strengthen and encourage ourselves in the LORD. May we remember our Master Weaver is creating a beautiful masterpiece from our lives for His glory.

Corrie Ten Boom and The Weaver

Blessings,

Deb